So, Kate rocks..... apparently. Logged on to msn- usually my escape from all things reality related and a chance to converse with those wonderful beings from around the globe who know so little about the real me, only to find his msn name is 'Kate rocks.' I mean, what is all that about? Only days after randomly declaring that he and kate are the 'best ever btw' he feels it necessary to declare to the world (or perhaps just me) that she 'rocks.' The only logical explanation for his sudden declarations of worship where kate is concerned is that he feels compelled to hide beneath this disguise of contentment, preventing the outside world from knowing the bitter truth - that he and kate are not infact 'the best ever'. Cue bells of impending doom. Perhaps they are about to split up. Back track a wee bit and replace 'the only logical explanation' with 'my giant hope' and the truth prevails. Although honestly (fearing for my health- what is with all the honestly?!) can't see any other reason why he would change his screen name to its current state and blurt out mid sentence that they are so good. It would seem that he is either
a) attempting to provoke a reaction from me (which isn't very like my s) or
trying to justify to himself more than anyone else why he is with her and not me
I like option b and seriously think it must be the real reason.
Anyway, have come to an executive decision and will not speak to him while his online persona remains as it is- a matter of principle- does he really think I want to know about how good he and kate are? Well, have already answered that one- no- he simply wishes to prove to himself that he is capable of resisting me and actually wants to be with kate. Well good for him, although I can't help but find it slightly pathetic that he stays with her whilst obviously still battling with his emotions and reasons for being with the 'rockin' kate.
Alas, men! What more is there to say?!
On a somewhat perverted positive note- have actually succeeded in the impossible- I have completely and utterly run out of tears. Devoid of emotion. Slightly unnerving to think of myself in that way but at least it doesn't hurt. I just feel numb and I kind of like it.
Joey ~X~