"Feelings are not supposed to be logical. Dangerous is the man who has rationalized his emotions." So I’ve been feeling like this for a grand total of 110days. That is, according to my calculations, approximately 109days too many. The weird thing is I actually am incapable of expressing how I’m feeling. I just can’t find the words to explain it. My head feels somewhat like a room that has become so overcrowded with people that faces can’t be seen and everyone loses their identity. The thoug...

“She’s saying that’s ok Hey baby do what you want I’ll be your night loving thing I’ll be the freak you can taunt And I don’t care what you say I want to go too far I’ll be your everything If you make me a star” A question that I know must bug even the most sane of people has to be ‘did Michael Jackson have anyone particular in mind when he wrote Dirty Diana?’ Lord knows it’s bothered me for longer than I care to remember. In honour of, well nothing really I deemed it time to actually ...

Re-reading my last entry caused some somewhat uninvited light to be thrown onto the subject of me and the males of our species. One thing I absolutely admire about a couple of my closest female friends is their ability to maintain successful friendships with members of the opposite sex. It seems I distinctly lack expertise in this field. Infact, I am absolutely appalling at it. I would sincerely like to have close male friends. Don’t get me wrong I have a few and I love them all to bits. Plus, a...

The effects of alcohol puzzle me. I mean, I know it’s a drug- a chemical with addictive properties. It’s a psychoactive drug, a chemical substance that alters mood, behaviour, perception, or mental functioning. Alcohol has always been the most widely used psychoactive substance. In most countries it is the only psychoactive drug legally available without prescription. Pleasant relaxation is commonly the desired effect, but intoxication impairs judgement and motor performance. When used chronical...

So, joy of joys, have again failed my driving test. Am doomed to an eternity of public transport. Wallowing in self pity you may think....... but alas no! Have decided to channel negative energy (ie. frustration, annoyance, anger) into creating myself a christmas spirit! That's correct ma petite cherie, have decorated my room and am sitting in a winter wonderland as we speak- a myriad of glitter, tinsel and singing santas! Currently downloading a delectable selection of Christmas tunes and admit...

So, Kate rocks..... apparently. Logged on to msn- usually my escape from all things reality related and a chance to converse with those wonderful beings from around the globe who know so little about the real me, only to find his msn name is 'Kate rocks.' I mean, what is all that about? Only days after randomly declaring that he and kate are the 'best ever btw' he feels it necessary to declare to the world (or perhaps just me) that she 'rocks.' The only logical explanation for his sudden declara...